A New Adventure Following My Dreams!

Okay I am ready to start posting again! 

I feel so tired and great at the same time.  I started cosmetology school today with Emma.  We are going 4 days a week 10 hours each day.  This program will take us 1 year to complete but I think the long run it will be worth it to get done in a year instead of dragging it out for two years. 

Emma said to me around January 1st that she thought she wanted to go to cosmetology school and as soon as she said that I had no doubt that I wanted to go too!

We had a great first day.  Cutting our manikin hair, rolling a perm and using the clippers on another manikin. 

I am sure I will be totally wiped out after each day but I am going to enjoy having this adventure with Emma!  I love her and we make each other laugh :)

Today I am grateful for new beginnings.  A fresh start after many of years of having a dream  do this.

My life....time to step into the dark

I have been wanting to write something for a week now and just haven't had the time.  I decided not to write any posts after I have taken my favorite sleeping pill otherwise my blog might sound very funny and you would all wonder what narcotics I was taking!

Clark and Barbie have left for a little vacation.  They went to St. George and left me in charge of Elle and their dog Coco.  I can handle the dog but I am not sure about Elle :) 

My two favorite neighbors (Clark and Barbie) have been very boring lately.  I don't really have any good stories to write about.  But I do have another 8 months or so with them so there is bound to be something interesting that comes up, just be patient!

I went to Elle's parent teacher conference yesterday.  I am so proud of Elle, she has been working so hard and she is doing wonderful!  She really wants to go to St. Andrews in Scotland.  It is a very difficult school to get into and she told me every time she feels like slacking off she thinks of St. Andrews and it motivates her to do her best. 

Today is my anniversary.  I am so happy to say I have been married for 21 years!!!  Scott is going to take me somewhere special this weekend (it is a surprise, but I think we are going to a bed and breakfast in Heber??? Not sure though)  I love surprises. 

Things are going smoothly in my life right now.  I am happy and content.  I guess it is time to step into the dark....I am going to register for school and go full steam ahead and try to get my degree by the time Elle is finished with high school!  Right now I want to be a teacher and work with young kids.  I know it will be hard but I can do it!

I am grateful for a blessed life!  Especially for 3 great kids and a wonderful supportive husband!  I love Scott :)

3 kids 3 reports

Today is Tanner's birthday.  I feel sad that I can't talk to him.  He is doing just great on his mission and I am sure he is not sad  at all that I can't talk to him.  He has better things to do then talk to his mom (this is a good thing).  He was just asked by his mission president to learn Chinese in order to teach Chinese investigators. (He studied Chinese for three years before his mission but he hasn't had any Chinese for a year now).  He will still be studing and teaching in Cambodian also.  He is very happy about this new assignment but very humbled because it will be very difficult to study, learn and teach in both of those languages.  If anyone can do it I know Tanner can (especially with the help of Heavenly Father).

I am feeling frustrated with Elle's experience with young women's so far.  I was hoping that the leaders and girls  (mostly the leaders, I know sometimes the girls just don't take the initiative on their own) would welcome Elle and help her feel comfortable with the program and help her feel part of the group.  It is just not happening.  I am not sure what steps to take.  I feel like Elle is just falling through the cracks, she would be totally happy to not attend any activity or meetings if I didn't insist she go because no one notices her or talks to her or helps her feel welcome and part of the group.  I saw this first hand tonight as I attended an activity with her (the parents were invited).  Actually if I was 14 and new in the ward and was treated the way she was tonight I wouldn't want to attend anything either.  My heart just aches for her.

I am feeling relieved and so happy for Emma.  She is enjoying her experience in China.  She told me today that she doesn't understand why Tanner or anyone else would want to ever live there permanently.  (I think it is mostly because she doesn't like the squatting that is required to go to the bathroom)  She is planning on taking a subway or train to attend church this coming week.  This will be a 9 hour adventure, 3 hours to get there, 3 hour service and then 3 hours home!  I can't wait to hear about her experience :)

I am so grateful for prayer.  I pray that all of my kids can over come any challenges that they may face this coming week :)

Just call me Molly :)

Today has been one of those days that just is long and hard but wonderful :)  I made my first batches of raspberry/peach jam with the help of my great sister-in-law Amber.  She is a great cook and all around home maker and I am glad she was willing to take me through it step by step, now I am so happy to say I can make raspberry jam!  I am going to make another batch of it tomorrow just to give away!!  I am so excited to have this skill.  My next homemaking skill I want to learn is how to make really yummy bread and orange rolls (she is excellent at this too!)  I am going turn into Molly Mormon Homemaker before you can snap your fingers!! 

When I went walking with Elle tonight she said "mom you just have to much time on your hands.  You never use to have any time to do this kind of stuff when we were in MN, you were always so busy doing other things for other people."   I am excited to have some free time to do some things for my family now.  It is an odd feeling not to be running around for others but be totally focused on my family and especially Elle!  I think she kind of likes it.

I am grateful for Prophets who give us the council to get prepared for emergencies.  This is our families focus this month as Tanner has given us a challenge to get our 72 hour kits prepared. 

My Love

I wanted to express to my husband how much I love him.

He took Elle and I to the Utah Symphony on Saturday night and it was so beautiful.  I enjoyed every minute of it.  It actually was Elle's idea to attend but Scott jumped right on that and got the only tickets left with 3 seats together in the whole place.  It was 2nd row from the top but that didn't matter because the music sounded outstanding and the two people I went with were even better then the music.

Before we went to the concert Scott took Elle and I to dinner at Market St. Grill.  I love seafood and the claim chowder was excellent.  I couldn't have asked for a more wonderful night.

I am so blessed to have a husband who cares enough to take his two girls out!  He even missed the Utah game so he could do something special for us.  Sometimes I don't appreciate all he does for our family.  He is one of the hardest working people I know (probably the hardest working person).  He has a heart of gold and I am so lucky to be married to him!

It is my 21st anniversary in two weeks! It hasn't always been easy but it definitely has been worth it.  I am the person I am today because of a husband who loves me and supports me in everything I do.  I love him with all my heart!

I didn't expect this post to be so mushy but I can't help it, my relationship with Scott has been on my mind a lot and I felt a need to express this.

I will stop here before you all go throw up.

I am grateful for the family Scott and I have created over the last 21 years.

Crying through season 7 and missing my kids...oh what a day :)

I have had a day of rest and relaxation.  Grandpa took Elle to school.  Scott had hours long conference calls he was involved with and needed the house very quiet.  I decided to watch the seventh season of The Office in my room with my dogs, I started at about 10:00 this morning and just got down with the episode when Michael leaves and I have never changed out of my pajamas today!

I love, love, love The Office.  It has been a favorite of mine and my kids for many years.  Especially Tanner and Emma loved to watch it with me.  As I laughed so much today it made me think of my two kids.  The kids that are very far away from me at the moment.  As the day has progressed and I watched Michael leave the tv series it actually has made me feel sad and miss Tanner and Emma.  I am struggling at this very moment with the reality that my two oldest kids are unable to be here with me.  I know this is just a small moment in time but for this moment I feel sad.  I think my sadness is compounded with the fact that I am living in a new situation and I miss my life and friends that I had in Rochester.  It just seems to be the perfect storm tonight!

Okay I actually feel better about it now that I blogged about it.  I have peace in my heart and know that things are how they should be.  I am happy and hopeful for Tanner and Emma that they will reach goals and serve the Lord and become great people.  I want this for them.  I don't want then to feel like they can't do these things because ti causes to much pain in my life.  Those of you how have had children leave and move on in their life I would appreciate hearing from you and know how you have transitioned through this trial in your life.

Today I am grateful for my family.  I have been so blessed to be a mother to 3 awesome kids and a wife to a caring husband.

I know I will feel great in the morning and beable to move on with life but right now I just need a really good cry.  It is so hard to let your kids move on with their lives even when it is such a positive experiences for them.  I have been a mom to them for 20 years now and I really don't know how to much else and so when these chapters in your life come to a close and new ones open there is a great sadness and emptiness that enters your heart.  On the other hand I am so so so so happy for them both to be having experiences that will help them become the people God intended for them to become.  It is through this kind of stepping out of our comfort zones when we grow the most.  I know they are enjoying their lives and learning and growing.  I also know that this helps me grow as a person too.  But sometimes, just sometimes it is very hard!

Okay I feel much better now. 

laughter is the best medicine

Barbie made me laugh today.  I have not been feeling well (I have a UTI) and Barbie was just the medicine I needed.  I have made a choice to bloom where I am planted and right now I am planted right beneath Barbie and Clark.  Today Barbie asked me if I would cremate her (after she is dead of course) and then she wants me to carry a little bit of her around with me everywhere I go (just in case we need to talk).  I told her no.  I would not enjoy carrying her around and I didn't think I needed to carry her around with me so we could "talk" whenever I wanted.  I could talk to her without having her ashes with me all the time :)  But I did promise her that I would wear the ugliest broach she pulled out of her jewelry box to her funeral (she of course thinks it is beautiful because it "sparkles"). 

I am grateful for my new phone (I love it!)  I have been taking all kinds of fun pictures of Barbie today (the kind that if I put them on my blog she would be mortified and probably would just die right then and there.  Then I really would have to wear that ugly broach)

Senior Moment

Barbie was a bit embarrassing today.  I think she had a "senior" moment during church.  Today during our sacrament meeting (this our church's main meeting) it was testimony meeting (when members of the congregation have the opportunity to stand in front of everyone and testify to others about what they know to be true. It is very spiritual and a reverent time to listen to others share their feelings).  Someone got up and shared a story of a time when they were growing up and towards the end he turned to Barbie and Clark and stated that they may remember this because they once were in his ward.  Barbie then blurted out from the congregation "yes!, and Krystine can too!" very loudly.  The whole congregation turned to look and I wanted to crawl under the pew.  Oh it was a wonderful moment :)  For those of you that are not Mormon, this is uncommon...people do not shout out from the congregation anything during this time...Just saying :) 

If you want to learn more about how the Church of Jesus Christ of Latterday Saints worship on Sundays please go to mormon.org or lds.org

I am very happy to have my hubby Tony home!  It has been wonderful to spend time with him.  I missed him so much.  I get to have him home for the whole week :)  I feel like life is so wonderful.  I love my family.

I am grateful for this Sabbath day (even if Barbie embarrasses me).  I love Sundays.

The Call that Never came

I have been sitting up waiting for Tony to call me.  He said he would call me tonight a 11pm right before he had to board a plane that will be bringing him home to me.  It has been 2 weeks since I laid eyes on him and I am very happy that I get to spend a week with him before he sets off to his next assignment.  I don't think he is going to be making that planned call tonight.  I am going to go crawl into bed and dream about him. 

I am grateful for my best friend Elle!  She is awesome and fun and interesting and crazy all rolled into one.

Stupid, Stupid, Stupid People!!!!!!!!!!!

I am very, very, very annoyed right now.  You could even say I am angry.  I just signed on to my email account and I had some really weird emails from people with odd subject descriptions.  I knew something was wrong.  I was very leery of opening any of them.  But a friend of mine had sent me a message on face book letting me know that it is actually me (my email account) that is sending out the weird emails and that someone had hacked into my account!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to scream....it is so frustrating, why do people do that???  I have changed my password for my account and Scott will be getting home on Friday so he can help me fix things (this happened to him not to long ago).  Until then I will not be sending emails out.  If you happen upon my blog and read this it is not because I have sent out a reminder that I wrote tonight.  Sad!!  I hope to be able to email to all my family and friends soon. 

I am grateful for the beautiful night sky I was able to enjoy tonight as I went walking.  It was so amazing with all the brilliant stars!